All Mixed Up
August 12th, 2007 at 12:55 AM — ♥[2]
So here I am sitting in my room, and I’m fine. I’m okay.
But of course, all of a sudden, a feeling rushes through me. A feeling of loneliness. I feel like I’ve lost all of my friends. They’re not within reach. This is extremely terrifying. I don’t know what to do with myself. I feel like senior year is going to be horrible. I’m going to have to drag my ass through every minute of social torment. And of course drag myself through the essays, books, projects, and endless assignments. I’m quite honestly, terrified to go back to school. For me, it’s just going to be a teenage wasteland. At least that defines my high school. All the kids are awful. There are most certainly cliques, and not everyone is nice and will go up to you if you’re alone. Now that I think of it, I’m beginning to hate high school. Thank goodness I’ve only got one year left.
For those who know me well, I’m sorry for being such a horrible friend. Not calling and not making plans. To be honest, I think it’s mostly because this summer I went through having my first job, and so it was tough getting used to. Now of course, summer is nearly over and I’m not anywhere near where I should be in terms of being ready to go back to school. Mentally, psychologically, academically, physically, and of course socially.
Sorry for the breakdown.
Bummed,
Katie
It’s okay Katie! There’s still people who care, and I’m one of them. Who cares what your senior year in high school is going to be like? It’s just another year in school. College is a year away, a place to make a bunch of new friends. High school contains a rigid social stucture. Ignore it. It’s f***ed up anyway. You’ll get through the rest of this year fine. Trust me.
Comment by Terri — August 14, 2007 @ 8:26 pm
hey, well i can pretty much say that i feel the same way miss k. i feel like ive lost friends [which i have] and that no one calls me to do anything[which they dont]. but i understand your situation with working and school. but not to sound weird or anything but you are going through what alot of people call “growing up” lol. hahaha. no one wants to go through it but alot of people are, including me. stress at work, stress about the school year, stress at home, its just something that everyone goes through. untill you learn to balance everything dont be so hard on yourself. i was incredibly upset when i got my first job cause i was always out at work and never had the time for anyone else. but i got in that little balance. and im always here for you, im right down the block aint i? anytime you need to talk to anyone, i always have my cell phone on. anytime of the day or night i will talk to you. so dont feel you are the only one miss k. a bay bay[hahahahaha] cheer up and listen to some jungle or something to relax you. lol. call me if you need anything or wanna do something. ttyl.
Comment by Taylor — August 17, 2007 @ 11:13 am