Anxious
April 13th, 2010 at 11:56 PM — ♥[2]
I’m sick and tired of feeling alone… in my own little world.
You know those depression commercials that say “depression hurts?” Well so does anxiety. It hurts a lot. I can never feel like I’m free to do what I want, when I want to, because it’s always a matter of: ‘who’s driving and do I trust them.’ It’s not easy getting into a car with someone when you have no idea how they drive, if they speed, or if they’re going to take the route with all the hills. I hate being afraid of these little things, but I just can’t seem to help it. And when someone asks if I want to go somewhere with them, it’s always, “can I drive?” Just for fear that somehow their driving is going to be scary for me. I don’t want that feeling anymore. I want to go places and see the world. But instead, I’m afraid of stupid fucking cars. I don’t want to be afraid anymore.
